God has been good to us as well. We have to remember that. Many days and nights he has seen me walk out of a very dangerous place and come home to my loved ones. My brothers also work in a very dangerous profession, and he has seen them through. I know that he will not give us more than we can handle, that if we lean on him, he will strengthen us. I am very thankful for the blessings he has bestowed on me: 2 healthy sons who are my pride and joy, a wonderful lady to spend the rest of my days with, a good job (a brutal one, but a good one)...etc. Knowing all of this will not take away the pain and the tears, but it will give us the strength to deal with this (no matter the outcome)